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Thursday, December 3, 2009

The selfish me... a view through the window of my heart!!!


Some precious moments!!!

Life is strange!!! So many things happening around…Happy and sad… Friends are getting married one by one,, I still remember the days which we spent together loitering around in the college, just laughing and cracking jokes at anything possible…Laughter was the only outcome when we got together,,,

Things changed and each one of us took a different path… So many things happened after that in each one’s life, so many people across.. he he he.. its not been very long .. just 4 years but loads of things have changed…

I work in a country very far from my own!!! And today I was feeling so restless… as in from morning I have been thinking to check my mail , letterbox at my work place but work kept me quite busy. In the evening as soon as I finished my work… Rushed to the first floor…(I work on the fourteenth floor) just couldn't wait for the elevator… (oops I have this bad habit…!!! I shall not wait for something that is late even if it is more easy… for others!!! He he he ;))Went to the room where all the letters are kept.. . Now I got myself a little breath of air and slowly and calmly(true!!!) started to search letters one by one…but there weren't anyL

But there was something so compelling and kept telling me that someone close to me is waiting to talk to me and thinking of me so badly… As I was coming home, Faiza , Sukan and Saga’s face kept crossing in my mind…

Came home , knocked the door of the watchman..to ask if there were any letters for me but again he was not there and his son asked me to come again to collect it ,hmmm…then walked upstairs…put my clothes in the washing machine, washed my tiffin box, refreshed myself and called my sis first, This girl has actually broken her leg and arms (ok.. fine not actually broken but got bruises everywhere and also blood clots in her hands and legs and some parts of her body!!! Due to a “small ” accident near Ramanathapuram)God…. Now that reminds me of the day s before I left coimbatore… My sister was driving the bike and I told her,,, this is it.. probably I wouldn’t come back to coimbatore for some years.. probably never again!!! Partially due to the guilt and partially for the cause I took in my life… research!!!

Hey wait wait …. Then my sis did not pick the call, then called Faiz… She was bed ridden for the past three days!!! Due to a viral fever… I just hope she is fine… and she would be fine… Spoke to uncle… He said probably our friendship is quite telepathic! Since this was not the first time,.. I did not freak out at this statement;)Hope you ll be fine soon.. Love you Faiz.. take care…but still my heart was feeling restless…

Then called Sukan.. Sukan is getting engaged… this Sunday he he he.. very happy for you.. the first of the three roses to get married.. She is getting engaged this Sunday… I am very happy for her cos… I love her!!! Anyways… she told me how her life changed cos of her would-be… And she told me she is very happy.. but I just couldn’t speak when she said that she decided to be a home maker… I actually could not digest that she decided to sit at home and cook for her husband and in laws…Fine opinion differs.. but I just wish things remain good and she spends some time for herself…Sukan not to offend you or ur sentiments…Still feeling restless…

Aprum.. I started to write this (he he he type this.. )then came Gnana from work… he knocked the door and I was taken aback when he gave me a letter.. it was actually from ETS… MY GRE SCORE!!! Though it is pretty bad,,, I knowt this is what probably I was waiting for.. at the end poorani is totally in love for herself,, probably she is more selfish than anyone thought!!! Fine anyways,, it is my life.. and I have a reason to live my life… research!!!

LOVE You Amma..

Love you poorani J ummmmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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